As an Overseas Filipino Worker in Singapore, I faced a lot of challenges when I first moved here. The new culture, work ethics, food, and lifestyle were all difficult to adjust to. It wasn’t long before I found myself deep in the quicksand of depression. And when COVID hit, my already burnt out state only worsened.
Hitting Rock Bottom
I had my darkest days, thoughts I never knew existed in my mind, places I never expected my mind to go. I literally gave up on happiness at that time. It wasn’t until I hit rock bottom, not being able to eat for almost 2 days and going for midnight runs just to cry, that I realized I needed help.
The Power of Talking and Sharing
When I told my partner about my struggles, he told me, “You are not a mess. You’re doing fine.” Those words hit me deeply and made me realize that maybe I could still fix things. I went to see a doctor, who told me what I was lacking all this time – talking.
As an introvert, I was never one to speak about my stories or express my emotions. But I started calling my family and opening up to my husband. It was scary, but it felt good to let it all out and be vulnerable around the people I trust.
The Healing Power of Journaling
Along with speaking up, I also started journaling. I wrote down everything I was feeling, thinking, doing, and planning to do. It wasn’t just a summary of my day, but a detailed breakdown of everything. Writing allowed me to process my emotions and overcome them.
Journaling was a healing experience for me as an introvert and someone who loves writing. It gave me a space to vent, understand my emotions, and get to the bottom of my struggles.
Taking the First Step to Healing
Depression is a serious matter, and everyone overcomes it differently. But for me, speaking up and journaling were key to my healing. Don’t wait until you reach rock bottom to let out what’s in your heart. Whether it’s writing or talking to a trusted friend or family member, allow yourself to feel and process your emotions. Know that you’re not alone, and you will get through this.
Remember, if your struggles become harmful to yourself or those around you, seek professional help.
I hope my story inspires you to take the first step towards overcoming your own struggles with depression.
